“How strange: to land in the second part of your life, without even having lived its first.” – Trivarna Hariharan Life is weird. Everything is so weird all the time. I think about how weird my life is every time my dad helps me in and out of my wheelchair at the doctor’s office, andContinue reading “May 19, 2025”
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February 20, 2025
“I’m in pain because the day is ending and I am somehow never healing.” – Anne Sexton My entire experience of life has been altered in the most twisted way by being ill. It’s compressing and suffocating and painful. People will be ruthless with you – with your body, with your health, with their words.Continue reading “February 20, 2025”
February 22, 2024
“I was supposed to be having the time of my life.” – Sylvia Plath I turn 25 tomorrow. It’s a milestone birthday of sorts, I guess. A quarter of a century. Something I would have considered monumental and exciting – a call for celebration. But instead of it being a joyful, celebratory day, it nowContinue reading “February 22, 2024”
October 20, 2023
“I’m searching for a phrase that will release everything that’s pent up in me.” – Henry Miller I’m so resentful of this life. I don’t even think to call this a life would be fair. I just don’t think humans were built for this kind of suffering. I wasn’t. And yet, it’s all that IContinue reading “October 20, 2023”
May 28, 2023
“I wonder if there’s a secret current that connects people who have lost something. Not in the way that everyone loses something, but in the way that undoes your life, undoes your self, so that when you look at your face it isn’t yours anymore.” – Nina LaCour Time doesn’t move the same for meContinue reading “May 28, 2023”
February 21, 2023
“Everybody knows that deep down life is as much about the things that do not happen as the things that do…” Claire-Louise Bennett It’s days like these where I’m so ill that I don’t care that I’m missing out on life. Days like today are simply about survival. It’s a lot of telling myself, “justContinue reading “February 21, 2023”
September 19, 2022
“Is there another life? Shall I awake and find all this a dream? There must be, we cannot be created for this sort of suffering.” – John Keats I don’t know where to begin anymore. I don’t know. I never thought I would know so little and feel so engulfed by my life, by myContinue reading “September 19, 2022”
October 7, 2021
“October 7, 2018” It thunders for a momentAnd I like the way your hair falls over your eyesA slow breeze drifts through the corn stalkAnd shadows cast from the looming trees nearbyYou dig your hands into your pocketsWhile I hold mine at my sideAnd though the sky is bleeding a purple orangei promise i’m notContinue reading “October 7, 2021”
September 26, 2021
I think I’m taking this whole stream of consciousness thing too seriously – my mind works faster than my fingers, so I couldn’t keep up with my thoughts today, but I was writing a lot. I read it back just to make sure it made sense, and I was so caught up in writing thatContinue reading “September 26, 2021”
September 1, 2021
I don’t have a lot to say today. Nothing monumental happened, and I didn’t have any poignant breakthroughs. Today, I simply… existed. I listened to Lorde’s new album and old Phoebe Bridgers songs and I found this awful book about rich people being actual felons and I let myself fall into this world of millionairesContinue reading “September 1, 2021”
The Elephant in the Room 